So I haven't written in a while. I guess I feel like there isn't really anything in my life interesting enough to other to write about. It is finals week, thank goodness! I am so ready to move on from my classes right now. I did really like any of my geology classes this semester and not sure if i really learned anything either. I am sure I did learn something but nothing I find interesting I guess. Only field camp and one more semester to go!!
On Sunday I was having a pity fest for myself. One thing I dread about Sundays is gong to church and being surrounded by all the cute babies and everyone talking about babies. I love to play with the little kids and to see them so sweet and cute and they just make me so happy. I want my little babies. I want to hold them and watch them grow and the thought that I won't get to until I am done with grad school breaks my heart. How can I last 3 more years like this! I cired a lot this last sunday about it. I have cried about it most sudays for the past couple of months. I am crying about it right now. I am trying to accept my curretn path and be grateful to Heavenly Father for the wonderful oppornunity and belssing to go to grad school, everything is falling into place and working out perfectly for grad school that I know that is where I am suppose to be. I do not want to go to grad school, I scared to death. I don't feel I know enough to go. I just want to be at home, holing my sweet baby, sing to him, rock him and tell him how much I love him.
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One of my good friends just got accepted into the best interior design school in the nation. THE BEST. She was unsure if she should go, but applied anyway (you should, by now, know how arduous it is to apply for Grad School). Anyway, she got in. A few weeks after she received the acceptance letter, she found out she was pregnant. The choice was really hard. She didn't know what to do. A lot of our friends do Graduate school with kids ... but for her, it wasn't the right choice. She says, "Amor, I just feel happy that the best school in the nation accepted me." Anyway ... just something to think about. Whatever the decision, if it's right .. You'll be supported. Good luck!
Oh Heidi... I feel the SAME way about babies- Sundays are the worst! I too have cried multiple times this month about wanting to start a family. I am happy that you are being positive and that everything is falling in place with grad school, but just because it is falling in place doesn't mean that it is the right path for you... Not to discourage you from going, but I know how hard it is going to be for you to wait 3 more years if you are already having a hard time. . . we can talk about this tonight at work. Ha Ha!
As a mom who finished school first, it is totally worth it. I have my baby now but I know that I did what I needed to do and have something to fall back on so I'm not "just a mom". Kudos for doing the hard thing. You will be great and have your baby soon!
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