Very sad day

I have been meaning to update about Emmmett and our job search but that will have to wait for a diffrent day.

Monday I ended up getting the stomach flu which means for 24 hours I could not eat or hardly drink anything.  Due to this and some medicine I took Emmett had to have a bottle for 24 hours and I pumped for that time every three hours.  of course my milk supply suffered as I could not keep any food or liquids in so now 4 days later I am still hardly making any milk.  I have talked to three different doctors and lactation specialist and what I get to do until Monday morning is try and feed Emmett for as long as he will stay latched on.  He then gets a bottle while I pump.  Then at 8 when he goes to bed I pump for one hour, 10 minutes on 10 minutes off.  Then feed him at 10:30.  Do the pump again for one hour like before at 1 am.  Feed him at 4:30.  Emmett is very frustrated and doesn't want to latch on.  I am quickly running out of stored breast milk and am trying to get him use to formula.  The doctors are hesitant to start me on the drug that will help me start lactating again because it brings on depression.  Right now I am a big ball of stress and anger and frustration and sadness and whatever other sad words you can think of.  Greg gave me a blessing last night so I am just trying to keep my faith, maybe that is what Heavenly Father is trying to do, give me a lesson on faith. So if anyone has any advice or knows of some way to distract me be my guest!  Hopefully on Monday I will either be making milk again or be on the drug!  Pray for me!